HELLOHELLO !

dear xanga im backies . :D been really busie these days , ya noe ? remedials every single day since holi started . no time to breathe or whatever shit . yeah . this is my shitty life . don admire mie okies ? haha . ._. been shagged from this weeks activities and blah blah . you noe i think i carn tahan anymore already lurhs . lifes been nort tad good . but anyways , i still gotta live ? sadness . >:( dar avoidin mie today i think . dunno what happen agens . suan lerhs . every nite send him sms can lurhs . get his reply back feel very happie and contented can lerhs . i don wanna expect more . but , im scared this simple thing wont be fufilled . hais . if it really happens . i mite break down i guess . which means more emo for mie . sobs . dar i miss you . i think you noe it too rites . dhens why you avoidin mie ? did i do anythin wrong agens ? or smth has happened once agens ? i hope if you got any probs or fan naos , must tell mie . i hope i will always be the first one there for you . no matter what . you noe i dunno what words can describe my love for you now . just hope tad you can feel it . even now . i even fear of goin online cos i scared you mite switch your status or whatever . yah . you noe how hurt i mite be ? these are signs of avoidance and i dunno why you are doin this tho . x-x sorry . im once agens an emo pig . ignore mie okie ? haisss . dar i miss you like fck . ni dong ma ? don bu li wo le okie ? i gave all my love to you . dar you are the only one i want . don ever leave mie okie ? wohenxiangni , mybaobeidar ! <3

SHAGGED totally . im really workin very hard . hope my hardwork will be paid off ? i even constantly do my eng hmwk too . a turnin point for mie ? partly of all these are becos i wanna drown my sorrows in my work . just like i did previously (before the chinese o lvl week) . yeah you can all see how pathetic i am . i dunno how to control my emoness , my stress , my emotions . hey actually i have said that im a failure for many times . i guess im all along correct .

dar ni hui bang wo marhs ? hui lai wo shen bian . x-x i miss your horny-ness . i miss your switness . i miss your .. EVERYTHIN . iLOVESbaobeidar 1314 3344 ! yongyuan yibeizi . LOVES ! mooarcks ! <3

DAR AH DAR ! ((:

i think that he is still sleepin barhs . piggie dar ! but still lovee you . haha . touched marhs ? :D don think you will read this anyway . but just wanna be clear of that . <3 hen ai hen ai ni . i love your swit smses too ! ((:

and and , we got our love license on 03JUNE07 . woot ! in the wee hours of the night . failed first try cos was too STRESSED . lols , so manie people watchin lehs . ._. passed second try with 6 hearts . mooarcks dar ! ((: you got yourself a tomatooo dar . ROFL ! :D hope you don mind . XP slept at 3plus i think . marmie naggin and scoldin . fck her cans . x-x damn disiao . weddin day lehs . tok awhile more carn mehs ? tmd .

ahhh ! today have sku lehs . 1-3pm . cos chem was cancelled so mornin free time . hen lame cans . why carn shift it to the mornin ? waste my nice day . >:( and i miss dar . hehe . waitin for him to WAKE UP . ahhh ! but also no use cans . cos he wake le i would be in sku liaos . havin english lessons . so borin lehs . hais . i wanna go rest awhile lerhs . if not scared will fall asleep durin lessons . tmd ! =x

1 month 25 days
56 days

and still countin.. ((:

AHHH ! ((:

things are gettin betta ? lols . not sure . but we talked alr . yeah and i feel its kinda alrite lurhs . at least i noe whats happenin . oh yesss . and i slept at 4 am yst. :D whee . not bad ehs . nearly could break record cans . but .. -.- i forced myself to sleep . tired de lehs . ._. in the end , ponned lesson . don think i will have enuff energy to pay attention . whatever lurhs . and im so fckin dead now . cos the maths all i don know how to do cans . x-x see larhs ! don wan go sku . now bigger trouble . fck it cans . nvrms . tmrw i gonn ask my tutor intensive amaths . waitin for weddin . ((: i hope it will be tonite lehs . ILOVEYOU ! <3 ok , im waitin for my mum to come back with my dinner cans . -.- she just ended work . and im fckin hungry lerhs . zz .

hmm . xanga carn change the timing and date lehs . so ma fan cans . cos i always wanna add posts or smth . dhens , maybe i will change back to blogger . lols. =x see first lurhs . maybe nia larhs . haha . i wanna change a skin ! ((: lata barhs when im free . lalala ! didnt do any hmwk today except for .. 1 compre exercise. ._. without the summary even . sians . -.- i got lotsa to do ! ahhh ! okok , i go conserve my energy . ^^ i want weddin tonitesss ! *prayyys*

ahhh ! i don really think this skin suits my current blog . so thinkin of changin a new one . ._." and fyi , i just changed it yst . rofl ! tuition today ! -.- hais . dunno how to tell her larhs . xiasuay si lerhs . mama de ! and , its already 6 days . im controllin well . i tried every mean and way not to think of you . but but , i dreamt of you yst . i think no matter how i try to run away from you , i wont be able to forget you derhs . thats what i think only . you may not feel the same way as me , its ok . ): from this , it really showed how much i love you . i AM jealous when you are with otha girls . but , what can i fckin do ? nth right . and i noe that too . hais . ok nvrms . maybe its time for me to cool down and sort out my feelins .

BREAKFAST was .. -.- i think becos its cheaper thats why he bot it . ma de larhs ! fck . you think i will eat anything that you buy for me ? do i look like a rubbish chute ? sorry hors i don ! -.- whatever lurhs . aftanoon i goin vivo with my mum ! kim gary ! ^^ baked cheese rice . omfg ! im droolin already . haha ! (:

dar , i missmissmiss you so much .
wishin you will be back soon .
chao ai ni ! ((:

AWW ! im back !

today was plain unlucky . ok , not completely , but mostly . i was so so late in the morning . even missed the 6.45 bus ! ohmytian . took the 6.55 bus . sku was kinda hyper today as its the LAST day of the term . meaning HOLIDAYS ! but on a sad note , i still have lessons to attend . tamade ! chinese intensive continued . but i was kinda distracted by the magazine and testimonial draft . lols ! anyway , im kinda pissed by someone. ok , i didnt say anything to her . and she just suddenly turn arnd and say stuff abt me . whatthehell larhs . knn ! do i owe you a living too ? -.- fckin pissed off . i always mit such ppl . VERY SUAY . -.-

afta sku , was slackin in class . askin ppl to write the testimonial draft thingy . and dhens i lent my fone to my fren as she wanted to fone somebody . at that moment , i was approached by my fren to write her draft . and dhens afta writing , i noticed HER lookin thrue my fone without my PERMISSION . hellos ? i was nice enough and lent you my fone . and in the end , what do i get ? you lookin thrue my fone , invadin my privacy . is this what i shld get back . do you even have the manners to ask ppl before committing to such xiajian behavior . and i fckin dont noe what she had seen in my fone. becos she was kinda guilty when i wanted my fone back . there must have been something she has seen . my smses or photos . -.- im super disgusted . very , indeed . but anyway , i just pretended that nothin had happened . i fckin hope she wont go arnd tellin ppl what she has seen in my fone . its my privacy afterall . i hope she will respect me and i will respect her back . idiot ppl ! super pissed off . ._."

waited till 1.30+ and my mum finally came . i went to fetch her and we were sittin at the canteen waitin for the time . yeah , i flunked 4 subjects for overall . includin english . -.- my mum was naggin and naggin repeatedly abt my eng . hais . went jp afta that . lunched at crystal jade . woots ! hungry . =x collected specs . urhlala . was kinda dizzy afta wearin . -.- dhens went liberty ! saw my frens . happy happy ! ((: marketin . dhens pei mum find skirt . she didnt buy anything . instead , i bot a pants from double index ! nicee , loves ! <3 23.90 bucks afta GSS discount . kinda worthed it lurhs . cos i will get it for abt the same price at bugis or fareast . not bad larhs . bus-ed home ! TIRED , SHAGGED ! tmrw havin tuition . wonder how i gonna break the news to my tutor that i flunked all the subjects she taught me . lols . and my droppin to combine sci news . ._."

AND AND . YES ! i miss you darlin . ((:
i dont noe how i wanna tell you this .
but i hope you will feel it .
i really love you alot .
the love is still goin strong , im positive !

hen ai hen ai ni . x3
1 month 15 days ~

1 MONTH & 14 DAYS !

DAR , I HOPE OUR LOVE WILL STAY STRONG !
wo hui ji xu ai ni derhs . (((:

sku was LAMEE and more LAMEEEEE today . tamamade . haha ! hanar , i donno wtf all dhe chers doing lurhs . they gave us PILES and PILES of hmwk . -.- hellos ?! we are humans lehs . nt robots and whatever the fk , we have remedials for 3 weeks . our scheldues are FULLY packed . and i really mean every single day . ohmygosh !! there goes my june holis . i won even have the time to rest or what already . HOLYYY ! oh and yesss tmrws meet the parents session. walao . -.- i don wanna my mum mit my eng cher . ohmytian . becos i flunked eng and also 4 otha subjects . hellos ?! im gonna die already . this kinda shitty results . and i still have the cheek to play online games . my mum and dad gonna kill the heck outta mie and skin mie alive . HOLY, don be shocked if i ever go missing . they would be so so disappointed in mie . im ashamed of my results too . but what can i do already ? otha den start revising for prelims and o lvls . i see no pt in worrying abt this already . start working hard barhs . i will definitely reap what i sow , ty. cramps ! okok , im gonna nap now . carn tahan liaos . tatas ! (:

baobei dar , ni shi wo de 184! :D

BAOBEI DAR ! <3

i just wanna tell you .. no matter what happens , i will always be there for you . whenever you need me , just a phone call or sms i will ans you no matter how busy i am . its cos you are my everything and you are so important to me . ^^ i don wanna live in regrets . i want to face up to reality and be 100% sure of my own feelins . and what i can say now is that my heart is already with you . dar , i love you . and i hope that you will see this (altho its not really possible) . but , even if you carn , i want to let you noe that ..

wo zhen de HEN AI HEN AI ni ! *mooarcks :D

baobei dar , i hope that we will not avoid each otha anymore . and everything will resumn soon . i carn live without your presence . and now i am tryin to hold back my tears by stuffin myself with work and more work . i forced myself to indulge in my chinese work since o lvls are comin up soon . but i tend to find myself wantin to send you a " i love you ! " or " i miss you ! " sms . but i tend to hold back. and its becos i fear of not gettin back a reply . i hate bein ignored . it doesnt feel good . it gets me crazy and my thots will run wild . i don wan such a situation to happen . but i still don understand why you are doin this . maybe you are too stressed out or whatever . but i just want to at least noe whats happenin . it pains me to see no replies from you despite my frequent smses . it hurts me to wait for so long but in the end i got nothin back . but still , you are worth my everything .

ni shi wo de wei yi ,
mei you le ni ,
wo bian de hen miao xiao .

altho you might ignore me sometimes , for awhile . but soon we will be back bein lovely and all . but i must admit , i treasure those lovely times we had togetha . i hope that the beautiful fairytale will never end . im too naive to think that this will continue smoothly without any obstacles . however , your sudden ignorance pains me once more . im always hurt . but im all cured with your sudden appearance . you are my medicine . without you , the pain would be back . but with you , i find myself always in a happy mood even when things are not going the right way . this shows how important and significant you are in my life . i hope you will continue lightin my life up . im prayin and hopin that everything will go on forever . deep in my heart , you will always be the one im pinnin for . the one whom i have loved with all my heart and soul . (:

im just tryin to voice out my feelins . its only for YOU , the guy in my heart ! :D ILOVEYOU ! x3